About six months ago you walked into the living room to have a deep conversation with me. I'm not sure why you were thinking about it, but it's been life changing for me. It was short and you were to the point. I wanted to share it with you because your words went straight to my heart. Here it is:
You: Mom, there are kids that don't have parents to love them right?
Me: Yes that's true.
You: But you're a good mom and Dad is a good dad so why don't you love them?
Me: Wow I don't have a good answer. That's a very deep thought. I'll think about it.
You see since your brother was a little over one I have wanted a daughter. As you know my pregnancies were hard so your Dad and I decided not to have any more children. We had talked about adopting. I had even done research into it, but the cost of a private adoption is more then we can afford. I had just decided that some dreams weren't meant to be. The only thing we hadn't looked into was adoption through the state. Dad was open to foster care, but I had always been against it. That is until you and I had this conversation.
Your opinion means a lot to me so when you suggested that I loved you well and should share some of that love with another child. It made me stop and question my motives, why if I was so open to a private adoption I wouldn't be open to an adoption through the state. After a few months of thinking and praying it over I decided you were right. Now six months after you and I had this conversation I don't just think this is a good idea I'm over joyed at the idea.
Thank you for asking questions and giving me your thoughts on life. You are a good man with a good heart. I'm looking forward to walking this road with you where ever it takes us. I love you my son.
