The house is quiet, the fire is burning and for the first in months I am alone. You and the boys are out of state with family. I'm happily breathing in the silence that all introverts crave. But even though you three are so far away the living room has become a walk down memory lane, because sometimes one simply needs to remember.
|Wee hours of May 10, 2008.|
|Meeting our first born.|
I have your box out filled with scraps of paper photos and memories of our life. I spent time reading the story of us that you wrote and if I knew how to use our scanner would upload it to our blog. I'm remembering our first awkward walk to the dining hall that weekend we first met and all those long emails. I'm remembering the time I knocked the empty wine glass over because I was so nervous, the joy on our faces from our honeymoon, our first Christmas and the red dress you loved so much that you saved. I'm looking at ultra sound photos of Man of the woods, and "drawings" tiny baby fingers made for you. I'm reading silly cards we've given to each other. I'm thinking of the thick and thin we've walked together, but how it's the daily life that we have marked with ink and paper, things our minds have forgotten because they are so mundane. Strong man I love you for these past nine years together.
|Sweet Laughter days old.|
I would have never thought then that we would still be experiencing firsts together. But just a few weeks ago we bought our first television. This year we watched our first eclipse together. Just about every week the boys introduce a first-time-in-parenting for us.
Last week as we celebrated our ninth year together we snuggled close still in love, still laughing together, remembering our wedding, and every year after...
The joy the boys have brought us.
The journey God has taken us on.
The hopes we still have together.
I miss you and long for you the same way I did all those years ago as I laid down each night counting down until you would lay beside me. I love that each night you fall asleep touching me. I crave you just as much now as I did then. I haven't said it in a while, but let me say it now, "Thanks for asking."