Every year around this time I'm faced with the hard truth that time stops for no one. This is my 9th year of motherhood. No matter how deep my desire is for my two kidlets to stay young I am forced to watch them grow into men. In fact I rarely ever call them kidlets, boysies, hoolies, or any pet name because they are now true boys, my sons, and almost men. This week one more chapter in life came to a close while another one opened.
Here in our house summer vacation has officially started which means I will never be teaching a first grader again. As the year closes my baby can read most anything he wants to even if he doesn't have a clue as to the word's meaning, he's pretty good at the whole school thing. As for sweet Man of the woods, he is closer to his teenage years then he is his toddler years.
This year we have:
~ Explained words that I hoped they would never learn simply because they can read.
~ They also now know where babies come from.
~ I no longer require them to hold my hand in parking lots, but secretly hope they will every time we get out of the car. When they do take my hand in theirs I savor the feel of that small hand in mine, because If I am completely truthful Man of the wood's hands and feet are almost as big as mine.
~ We watched Man of the woods beam as he was given his very own pocket knife for his birthday and has attentively paid attention as he learns to use it on fishing trips where he is now required to always have it with him.
~ We have begun to wonder how old is old enough to leave them at home while we run to the corner store.
Since I can't stop the future from coming I breathe deep all the firsts they experience and dream with them about what lays ahead. After all while I want that small hand to always fit perfectly in mine, another girl will soon be dreaming of that manly hand fitting perfectly into hers. It's my job to prepare them for her and all the future offers them.
Strong man and I, we need to teach them:
~ To slow and see.
~ To dream big.
~ When faced with good and better, to always choose better.
~ To love without conditions.
Summer is all about new beginnings, dreaming big, and slowing. That's exactly what I plan to do with these small men. Already we're dreaming about rivers to swim in, critters to catch, woods to be explored, and adventures not yet thought of. These dreams seems small, but to them are big and grand. So then for me too they are big and grand, requiring me to slow and see, to always choose better, and to dream wildly. If I do this well then I can prepare them for all the future holds and those sweet girls that one day will dream of those manly hands.