To the two who grew in my womb,

There will be times when only you will know what it is God has asked you to do.  Good intentioned people will not understand and even try to change your ways, I may not even understand.  When these times come beg God to search your heart and show you if you have turned away from Him.  (Don't ask Him to affirm your actions as proof that you are doing what's right.  One question is asked in humility while the other in pride, and it is the humble heart that He will direct.)  If you through all your searching of Him and if He finds you blameless in all His searching of you are still convicted to walk against the well intentioned and perplexed mother then remember these people and carry on.

Now faith is the assurance of the things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.  For by it the men of old gained approval.  By faith we understand that the worlds were prepared by the word of God so that what is seen was not made out of things which are visible. 

By faith...
...Abraham, when tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises was offering up his only begotten son; it was he to whom it was said, "In Isaac your descendants shall be called."
...Even Sarah herself received ability to conceive.
...Isaac...Jacob...Joseph...Moses...
...The walls of Jericho fell.
...Rahab the harlot...
...Women received back their dead by resurrection.
...Others were tortured...experienced mockings and scourgings...chains and imprisonment...they were stoned...sawn in two...tempted...put to death...

And all these, having gained approval through their faith...(Hebrews 11)

And some will say, my loves, that these are men of the past of the Old Testament, before the new covenant was established.  Then boys remember these:

~George Muller who built multiple orphanages simply by praying; through faith.
~Jim Elliot who had a great ministry by all Christian standards here in the U.S. but left to love a people that ended up killing him.
~Elisabeth, Mr. Elliot's wife, who after her husband was killed went to those same people and watched them come to know Jesus and eventually the entire tribe.
~Francis Chan, who gave away 90% of his income and watched God change heart after heart, and miracle after miracle happen.

Sometimes what we are asked to do will be understood only by God. 

May you, dearest boys, find God's approval through your faith.

Love you,
Mommy

And He began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and the chief priests and the scribes, and be killed, and after three days rise again.  And He was stating the matter plainly.  And Peter took Him aside and began to rebuke Him.  but turning around and seeing His disciples, He rebuked Peter and said, "Get behind me, Satan; for you are not setting your mind on God's interests, but man's."

~ Mark 8:31-33