1. I looked to logic for help, the logic of my broken mind.
2. I didn't look for the joy so I couldn't find it when the meltdown hit.
3. I didn't once open my Bible.
4. I didn't talk with Jesus until I was sobbing.
Notice the common theme, here? I left God out of everything I did. No good. It's not enough to know it, I have to practice joy.
For Ezra had set his heart to study the law of the LORD and to practice it, and to teach His statutes and ordinances in Israel.
~ Ezra 7:10
655. My besties loving on me.